well well, for alla yall that dont know yet, FINALS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, think ill feel less guilty traking time out to log now that i dont have examsn coming up, going back to dallas leo! cant belive it, man i need a holiday, been reading a whole lot of interesting kenyan blogs (for way too long as is evidenced by the fact that i am awake at 4:30 am knowing i have to be at work at 8 :-) we aint never scared, im hoping i can instal ubuntu and jambo open office on uncle chris old comp before i leave for NAVADA BAIBIE!! Cant wait. decided to share my facebook album for all a yall that dont have the benefit of the ultimate in procastination technology. look for the link on the right.
cheers
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Hey people,
Hey people,
today was pretty funny, woke up on time. didnt feel like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders coz of it but it felt kinda good to be in class before the lecture started . had a dance performance for 'umoja' from which i learnt 2 things (1) measure ur audience before you perform
(2) some dances look way better from a distance.
Here is a little something that i wrote based on emotions felt today but long since let go. I think ill call it "Hate me"
HATE ME
If you want to hate me,
then hate me,
and hate me for good.
If your gonna do it,
Do it right!
Do it like you should!
Dont do that "flip-flop,
once on top,
then on the bottom,
can't decide which way to go,
wanna have it both ways,
cake and eat it,
bed and sleep in it",
thing that you seem to like doing!
I hate it,
I hate it right, for good, just like I should,
Why can't you.
Highly confused, i know, it was a bit of an emotional runt than a thought our thing.
anyway nyti nyt
today was pretty funny, woke up on time. didnt feel like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders coz of it but it felt kinda good to be in class before the lecture started . had a dance performance for 'umoja' from which i learnt 2 things (1) measure ur audience before you perform
(2) some dances look way better from a distance.
Here is a little something that i wrote based on emotions felt today but long since let go. I think ill call it "Hate me"
HATE ME
If you want to hate me,
then hate me,
and hate me for good.
If your gonna do it,
Do it right!
Do it like you should!
Dont do that "flip-flop,
once on top,
then on the bottom,
can't decide which way to go,
wanna have it both ways,
cake and eat it,
bed and sleep in it",
thing that you seem to like doing!
I hate it,
I hate it right, for good, just like I should,
Why can't you.
Highly confused, i know, it was a bit of an emotional runt than a thought our thing.
anyway nyti nyt
hey, weekendi imeisHA
Well,
theres a lot that cut this weekend and im hoping that it will be a signficant weekend in my life. I can let you in on all the info but, a lot of life happened. made it to church this time, Yes!!! the surmon was great! as usual. O.G. had a social at his place (which is pretty tight by the way) and that was fun, danced and DJed and then watched nigerian movies with the rest of the jamaz. it was fun. messed up my carcadian rythm but 'what else is new' right....
someone posted a picture of me acting as a chille during the folk tale night, even i have to say i was looking nyangious vibaya sana. here it is
heheehehehheee, WE AFRICANS WE AINT NEVER SCARED
Here is a little somethin, somin, probably the first part of a verse of a song/rap in progress. It has no name yet since its incomplete...
I find these faces ironic,
walkin through streets i think on it,
listenin' to voices thats speakin, indifferent ways, monotonic,
drawling through pages of phony,
facts on the land they once told me,
i was from,
never told me, i had to ring the alarm,
Coz Africa, we in danger!!
A distant world, total stranger!
Unwanted guests that cause Herod to fear a boy in a manger,
Being from where i come from,
is something that I did wrong,
Should prob'ly get on my knees, and repent
but I can't!
Spit faya!
Adios people, kenyans keep it real
theres a lot that cut this weekend and im hoping that it will be a signficant weekend in my life. I can let you in on all the info but, a lot of life happened. made it to church this time, Yes!!! the surmon was great! as usual. O.G. had a social at his place (which is pretty tight by the way) and that was fun, danced and DJed and then watched nigerian movies with the rest of the jamaz. it was fun. messed up my carcadian rythm but 'what else is new' right....
someone posted a picture of me acting as a chille during the folk tale night, even i have to say i was looking nyangious vibaya sana. here it is
heheehehehheee, WE AFRICANS WE AINT NEVER SCARED
Here is a little somethin, somin, probably the first part of a verse of a song/rap in progress. It has no name yet since its incomplete...
I find these faces ironic,
walkin through streets i think on it,
listenin' to voices thats speakin, indifferent ways, monotonic,
drawling through pages of phony,
facts on the land they once told me,
i was from,
never told me, i had to ring the alarm,
Coz Africa, we in danger!!
A distant world, total stranger!
Unwanted guests that cause Herod to fear a boy in a manger,
Being from where i come from,
is something that I did wrong,
Should prob'ly get on my knees, and repent
but I can't!
Spit faya!
Adios people, kenyans keep it real
yap
yap,
its 3:55am on thursday/friday and even i dont know why im up this late! anyway, i have finished my math homework so i guess that a plus. havent even looked at the programing work so thats a minus. today was same ol', life jsut dragging by. wish i had more to tell. ill holla at yo later.
one love
its 3:55am on thursday/friday and even i dont know why im up this late! anyway, i have finished my math homework so i guess that a plus. havent even looked at the programing work so thats a minus. today was same ol', life jsut dragging by. wish i had more to tell. ill holla at yo later.
one love
blackness and friends
Dare, kepo and johnyk himseluf chilling out and having fun int he jester basement after a dance praco. good time yall, good times
BLACKNESS
Here is something i wrote for the folk tale night, it has a tune too,played off my guitar with background and drums from FLstudio5. maybe ill post the whole thing up some time.
Blackness
Blackness. Dark rich mysterious
Deep impenetrable seas of
Blackness, swimming in seas
Of beautiful, rich darkness
Dark continent. Land mass
Dubbed incontinent,
Helpless, hapless, hopeless
Pictures of hopelessness fill
Minds and hearts at the the
Thought of my continent.
Labels, 3rd world, 4th world,
What world? Our world
Oh! No not them! Oh no not
When they stem, from the
Seed of the black cursed
Shem!
Scar, they say she’s a scar
On the worlds conscience,
I Say, they say,
shes the scar on the worlds bloated face!
Country or continent?
Most don’t know.
More don’t care.
Don’t dare to look
Don’t dare to stare
Her in the face,
So the act like nothings there.
Irony! The land of the elephant,
Has become the proverbial elephant.
Sits in the room but nobody stares,
Maybe she’ll go away,
A bad dream...maybe…
Proverbial white elephant,
Metaphor? A broken promise,
Unrealized potential
Of chained dreams,
Bursting at the seams,
Starving,
Lacking ways and means.
Happy! happy?? Happy!?
Joyful, ecstatic, glad
Content continent.
Eyes that light up at the gaze of a stranger,
Child oblivious of imminent danger.
Heart of fire,
Blood of kings and warriors,
Fearless conquerors,
Runs through vains covered in pink flesh
And sheathed in blackness.
Deep, rich, beautiful, impenetrable darkness.
hi people,
hi people,
what can i say, the past few days have been... complicated... to put it mildly, i have been dealing with issues that i thought i had dealt with. dont you just hate it when a dead monster rears its ugly head and goes "Im back!!" yeah, is wak. but anyway, life goes on right.
jana was the night of folktales! it was a tonne of fun, can you imagine i still havent called the people i was supposed to call last week!!?? Man you have issues. anyway, there is what i persieve to be a gain popularity of kenya jamz amongst my non kenyan aqaintances. yippie!
Kesho is my first fest africa!!!! i can wait! kuna after part and me i need to katika kidogo., kidogo tu... anyway, citibank is the slowest bank in the world. wamechizi. Pray for me if you are reading this, i need all the prayers i can get. One love.
Jesus is ... amazing!
what can i say, the past few days have been... complicated... to put it mildly, i have been dealing with issues that i thought i had dealt with. dont you just hate it when a dead monster rears its ugly head and goes "Im back!!" yeah, is wak. but anyway, life goes on right.
jana was the night of folktales! it was a tonne of fun, can you imagine i still havent called the people i was supposed to call last week!!?? Man you have issues. anyway, there is what i persieve to be a gain popularity of kenya jamz amongst my non kenyan aqaintances. yippie!
Kesho is my first fest africa!!!! i can wait! kuna after part and me i need to katika kidogo., kidogo tu... anyway, citibank is the slowest bank in the world. wamechizi. Pray for me if you are reading this, i need all the prayers i can get. One love.
Jesus is ... amazing!
Wallapa tena,
Im still too lazy to figure out how to post pics on this thing, ill get it sooner or latter. SMOKING IS BAD! I wish they would ban it.
Anyway im getting into the bad habit of sleeping at 3 instead of at 2 like im supposed to. i think this is the 3rd cosecutiveday that im doing it. not good. but then again maybe i should just extend my sleepign time to 3 and decrea that i should be in my room by 2 so that i can use the time to do my own things, knowing me tho that will only result in sleeping at 4am instead of 3. so i think it should just remain at..... well we'll see. Nice new skin eh! i put one on befor this that removed my profile pic and i wasnt havin it, plus it removed the change skin button so i had a hard time changing it. luckything i dont often let the machine win. It will all go in the next 123 days (when my free trial ends) so enjoy it while it lasts. finished the acts page of the fest africa site (all images as of now) and forgot to login at work, carried the wrong homework then spent 30 minutes searching for it. anyway, all in all life is dandy appart from the fact that i have a loan payment coming up and i dont have any money. Masomo tutawza.
I AM UNBWOGABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im still too lazy to figure out how to post pics on this thing, ill get it sooner or latter. SMOKING IS BAD! I wish they would ban it.
Anyway im getting into the bad habit of sleeping at 3 instead of at 2 like im supposed to. i think this is the 3rd cosecutiveday that im doing it. not good. but then again maybe i should just extend my sleepign time to 3 and decrea that i should be in my room by 2 so that i can use the time to do my own things, knowing me tho that will only result in sleeping at 4am instead of 3. so i think it should just remain at..... well we'll see. Nice new skin eh! i put one on befor this that removed my profile pic and i wasnt havin it, plus it removed the change skin button so i had a hard time changing it. luckything i dont often let the machine win. It will all go in the next 123 days (when my free trial ends) so enjoy it while it lasts. finished the acts page of the fest africa site (all images as of now) and forgot to login at work, carried the wrong homework then spent 30 minutes searching for it. anyway, all in all life is dandy appart from the fact that i have a loan payment coming up and i dont have any money. Masomo tutawza.
I AM UNBWOGABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wallapa yall
wallapa yall,
first i must complain!!! can you imagne they had ANOTHER FIRE DRILL TODAY!!!!! and it was RAINING too!!!!!! these guys arent serious with life for sure, wana fanya mchezo, watakiona!! Anyway something good actually came out of it. as i was forced to leave the building i had to go and study in the PCL which turned out be extra productive. i actually finished my math homework read a little elec and a lot of Gov. I hope to e doing that more often. i feel strangely proud of myself for doing so. God gaveme focus so i didnt even fidget much and didnt feel swatchious. appart from that and the fact that my bandwidth has bee severly cut because of exceeding my limit jana (as a result ot FF:IV)which is very annoying,i am good and psyched up for maisha. Hoping, still hoping against hope that my fees gets paid soon. America o!
first i must complain!!! can you imagne they had ANOTHER FIRE DRILL TODAY!!!!! and it was RAINING too!!!!!! these guys arent serious with life for sure, wana fanya mchezo, watakiona!! Anyway something good actually came out of it. as i was forced to leave the building i had to go and study in the PCL which turned out be extra productive. i actually finished my math homework read a little elec and a lot of Gov. I hope to e doing that more often. i feel strangely proud of myself for doing so. God gaveme focus so i didnt even fidget much and didnt feel swatchious. appart from that and the fact that my bandwidth has bee severly cut because of exceeding my limit jana (as a result ot FF:IV)which is very annoying,i am good and psyched up for maisha. Hoping, still hoping against hope that my fees gets paid soon. America o!
hattaing
Now lets see... what has cu tsince my last entry?
Quite a lot actually, the wise guys at jeter auditorum decided that 3am in the night is the perfect time to have a fire drill and thus prceeded to haul us all out of bed or my case desk and take us outside for about 40 minutes of time wasting. after all this, i being a wise guy my self thought it would be a good idea to brak my sleep pattern and stay up trying to figure out a math problem fora friend. man did that mess me up or what!!! i felt like the face of a sledge hummer for the whole weekend. I finally got the random point area program working (sort of) about 30 minutes to the deadline. im quite surprised at my self, did think i would be able to do it. I guess God just decided to have mercy on me. I hope he continues todo so.
Missed ASA. long story. Met a Kenyan who lives on my floor!!!!!!! wandas! i tell you. iwas so shocked mpaka i think i shtuad her. anyway its nice to jua that there are peoples from the digz country around. I went for the NI Info session and thugged their pizza. they talked about this Engneering Leadership program that i now really want to get into. I left them my resume, i hope they pick me.
I am hattaing videdly wth this Taylor series mamboz but usijali, ntajikaza kisauni and pray that God reveals it to me (maclauren series pia).
FINAL FANTASY VII: advent children rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i watched it today, (when i was supposed to be doingmy homework and it was just toooooooooo deadly. i also spentthe whole of my Sato evenign watching about 20 episodes of Naruto ( the best anime series ihave ever see), not good for my masomoz. I hope to jipanga better. wekend was ok. Uyai made some seriously delicious nigerian food and invited me and Uduak over, it was sawa sana.
Anyway its about my bed time so ill holla malataz
Quite a lot actually, the wise guys at jeter auditorum decided that 3am in the night is the perfect time to have a fire drill and thus prceeded to haul us all out of bed or my case desk and take us outside for about 40 minutes of time wasting. after all this, i being a wise guy my self thought it would be a good idea to brak my sleep pattern and stay up trying to figure out a math problem fora friend. man did that mess me up or what!!! i felt like the face of a sledge hummer for the whole weekend. I finally got the random point area program working (sort of) about 30 minutes to the deadline. im quite surprised at my self, did think i would be able to do it. I guess God just decided to have mercy on me. I hope he continues todo so.
Missed ASA. long story. Met a Kenyan who lives on my floor!!!!!!! wandas! i tell you. iwas so shocked mpaka i think i shtuad her. anyway its nice to jua that there are peoples from the digz country around. I went for the NI Info session and thugged their pizza. they talked about this Engneering Leadership program that i now really want to get into. I left them my resume, i hope they pick me.
I am hattaing videdly wth this Taylor series mamboz but usijali, ntajikaza kisauni and pray that God reveals it to me (maclauren series pia).
FINAL FANTASY VII: advent children rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i watched it today, (when i was supposed to be doingmy homework and it was just toooooooooo deadly. i also spentthe whole of my Sato evenign watching about 20 episodes of Naruto ( the best anime series ihave ever see), not good for my masomoz. I hope to jipanga better. wekend was ok. Uyai made some seriously delicious nigerian food and invited me and Uduak over, it was sawa sana.
Anyway its about my bed time so ill holla malataz
Thursday, August 04, 2005
From the worlds worst blogger (Self confessed)
Yes its me again, what? Don’t gimme that look like you don’t know who I am anymore. I know its been a long time but come on! You knew how I was when we started this (-:
Nothing much has been taking place tho. Finished the first session of summer and did pretty good at it and that God I was able to take physics 2 I summer 2 coz if its like this at community college I shudder to think how it would be at the Uni! Lets see, the lolwe blog is up and running with an introduction and everything (lolwe.blogspot.com). I’m thinking it looks pretty good if I do say so my self. I wish there were more contributions tho so if you have anything relevant to the site to share please feel free to post and share it.
I was beginning to despair at the amazing lack of good music these days. I know I’m starting to sound like baba but fo real yo, they just don’t do it like they used to. The 90’s especially the earlier portions of it was truly the Golden Age of alternative rock in my opinion. There was just so much good music out there that all had to do was turn on Capital and I would be dancing all day! Y’all know I love to get giggy wit it (-:
Greg laurie sed something today that really struck a chord with me. He sed that we cant afford to have a rollercoaster relationship with Mungu. Your just not going to be able to reap much of the benefits of the whole relationship thingie going up and down in your dedication to Him. The aim should not be to not just experience you know, bursts burst of spiritual energy but to fika a kind of consistency with Him. Enoch WALKED with God for 300 years before Mungu told him “ama hook you up”, he didn’t Sprint with Him on and off. He walked. Consistency. Im going to strive for that.
Man! Soul! That’s some tight music!
Ye cheers men, ill try and holla back mapemaz
Nothing much has been taking place tho. Finished the first session of summer and did pretty good at it and that God I was able to take physics 2 I summer 2 coz if its like this at community college I shudder to think how it would be at the Uni! Lets see, the lolwe blog is up and running with an introduction and everything (lolwe.blogspot.com). I’m thinking it looks pretty good if I do say so my self. I wish there were more contributions tho so if you have anything relevant to the site to share please feel free to post and share it.
I was beginning to despair at the amazing lack of good music these days. I know I’m starting to sound like baba but fo real yo, they just don’t do it like they used to. The 90’s especially the earlier portions of it was truly the Golden Age of alternative rock in my opinion. There was just so much good music out there that all had to do was turn on Capital and I would be dancing all day! Y’all know I love to get giggy wit it (-:
Greg laurie sed something today that really struck a chord with me. He sed that we cant afford to have a rollercoaster relationship with Mungu. Your just not going to be able to reap much of the benefits of the whole relationship thingie going up and down in your dedication to Him. The aim should not be to not just experience you know, bursts burst of spiritual energy but to fika a kind of consistency with Him. Enoch WALKED with God for 300 years before Mungu told him “ama hook you up”, he didn’t Sprint with Him on and off. He walked. Consistency. Im going to strive for that.
Man! Soul! That’s some tight music!
Ye cheers men, ill try and holla back mapemaz
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Hey there
Hey there,
Yeah its Sunday and im dreading having to go to school tomorrow especially considering the fact that I have a test on Tuesday on a topic that im not particularly fond of, forces and moments. Anyway, Gods been good to me. I feel pretty good. There was something I had promised to expound on in my last post but I cant remember what it is and since i am not online as I’m typing this I wont be able to check. Don’t worry tho, I haven’t forgot. I’ll do the necessary asap. Im missing Kenya more that usual for some reason. I so wish I could just go back right now. Anyway, I guess ill get over it. I went to watch the sisterhood of the traveling pants jana, its sucha beautiful movie, Ill have to get the DVD. Its been a while since I saw a movie that to sought to show the beauty and mystery of being human/ dared to explore naïve love.
I have a research project that I have not yet started on and its about time that I did. Im going to have to compromise on some of the fancy multi media stuff that I wanted to do with it but I feel that I will be finished with it by the end of the day today. I’m also gonna check if registration for fall at ACC has started coz I need to do my physics 2 there.
Found a church in dallas to fika. It looks pretty cool.
10 THINGS I MISS (in no particular order):
1. My Famo
2. Sonie
3. Sonie
4. Sonie
5. Jamaz of Bapo
6. Chilez of Bapo
7. Those simple Days
8. My guys from outside bapo
9. the sweet scent of Sonie’s perfume
10. Kenya
You know what! Even though I don’t know how He is going to work it out, I know God is going to work all this out coz I know that he has a plan for me and it is to make me prosper so no worries. I cant believe that He has got me this far so I’m easy kama Sunday morning.
Ma-lataz
Yeah its Sunday and im dreading having to go to school tomorrow especially considering the fact that I have a test on Tuesday on a topic that im not particularly fond of, forces and moments. Anyway, Gods been good to me. I feel pretty good. There was something I had promised to expound on in my last post but I cant remember what it is and since i am not online as I’m typing this I wont be able to check. Don’t worry tho, I haven’t forgot. I’ll do the necessary asap. Im missing Kenya more that usual for some reason. I so wish I could just go back right now. Anyway, I guess ill get over it. I went to watch the sisterhood of the traveling pants jana, its sucha beautiful movie, Ill have to get the DVD. Its been a while since I saw a movie that to sought to show the beauty and mystery of being human/ dared to explore naïve love.
I have a research project that I have not yet started on and its about time that I did. Im going to have to compromise on some of the fancy multi media stuff that I wanted to do with it but I feel that I will be finished with it by the end of the day today. I’m also gonna check if registration for fall at ACC has started coz I need to do my physics 2 there.
Found a church in dallas to fika. It looks pretty cool.
10 THINGS I MISS (in no particular order):
1. My Famo
2. Sonie
3. Sonie
4. Sonie
5. Jamaz of Bapo
6. Chilez of Bapo
7. Those simple Days
8. My guys from outside bapo
9. the sweet scent of Sonie’s perfume
10. Kenya
You know what! Even though I don’t know how He is going to work it out, I know God is going to work all this out coz I know that he has a plan for me and it is to make me prosper so no worries. I cant believe that He has got me this far so I’m easy kama Sunday morning.
Ma-lataz
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Its been a long time... shulndt have left you..
its been a long time indeed, since the finals came creaping around the corner i have lengad mpaka even me i have shangaad. but anyway i think i am back in full swing now only time will tell.
Lets see... what has happened in the mean...mmmhhh.. I had what i consider a life changing experience the leadershape camp that i went to after school closed.
Leadershape is an organization that organizes (pun intended) camps that are designed to get your vision out of your head and into the real world and I must say tey are really really good at it. I met soooooooo many amazing people with amazing visions and a kind of contagious engery/life force that just made me want to get up and make things happen instead of just watching things happen. I made my vision statement and I will be telling you more about it at a latter date.
Appart from all the learning it was a really fun and some times grossely emoyional experience :-) every bodys gotta cry some time:-) which was weird since we had only known each other for 6 days. Anyway stranger things have happened.
Im now taking my summer school at northlake college and quite enjoying it. I take care of my cousin in the afternoon and also try and get some studying done at the same time.
My Uncle shak came over to the states and we went and chose a ZEN micro mp3 player for him (swoon) i so want one of those. He also brought quite abit of kenyan music with him which i thankfully recieved and have been listening to religiously especially Esther Wahome (again pun intended). who would have thunk that i would be bopping my head to the bead of 'moyoni'. Kenya rocks like woa!
Ama keep you updated on the happenings
Lets see... what has happened in the mean...mmmhhh.. I had what i consider a life changing experience the leadershape camp that i went to after school closed.
Leadershape is an organization that organizes (pun intended) camps that are designed to get your vision out of your head and into the real world and I must say tey are really really good at it. I met soooooooo many amazing people with amazing visions and a kind of contagious engery/life force that just made me want to get up and make things happen instead of just watching things happen. I made my vision statement and I will be telling you more about it at a latter date.
Appart from all the learning it was a really fun and some times grossely emoyional experience :-) every bodys gotta cry some time:-) which was weird since we had only known each other for 6 days. Anyway stranger things have happened.
Im now taking my summer school at northlake college and quite enjoying it. I take care of my cousin in the afternoon and also try and get some studying done at the same time.
My Uncle shak came over to the states and we went and chose a ZEN micro mp3 player for him (swoon) i so want one of those. He also brought quite abit of kenyan music with him which i thankfully recieved and have been listening to religiously especially Esther Wahome (again pun intended). who would have thunk that i would be bopping my head to the bead of 'moyoni'. Kenya rocks like woa!
Ama keep you updated on the happenings
Thursday, April 21, 2005
> Play: Pot of gold
The wealth of social commentary on Kenya by Kenyans in the diaspora is simply mind boggling. Browsing about the net looking for something of ‘maana’ to read up on I some how found myself on a blog called Kenyan pundit by a law student at Harvard. Not only did the author have quite interesting blogs of his own but the site also provided me with links to various interesting blogs focusing on Kenya and Africa as a whole.
I couldn’t help but feel proud of ‘my people’ reading through the posts and taking in the potpourie of ideas and silently marveling at the quality of writing we seem to so easily generate. Up Kenya! Up!-)
Anyway, we are now in the thick of the Darfur awareness week here at UT. I wasn’t able go to the letter writing party today but I hear that the turn out is really good. The movie for yesterdays program arrived about 15 minutes before the show was schedualed to star! I was beginning to despair, I guess the timing must have had some significance.
It was really good considering that it was a rough cut. The movie is called ‘A message from home is essentially a collection of interviews from of people at various refugee camps and settlements in Darfur and Neighboring Chad. I like the way the interviews strove to show both the pathos of their current situation and their will to go on and rebuild their lives. Kusdos to the producers!
I couldn’t help but feel proud of ‘my people’ reading through the posts and taking in the potpourie of ideas and silently marveling at the quality of writing we seem to so easily generate. Up Kenya! Up!-)
Anyway, we are now in the thick of the Darfur awareness week here at UT. I wasn’t able go to the letter writing party today but I hear that the turn out is really good. The movie for yesterdays program arrived about 15 minutes before the show was schedualed to star! I was beginning to despair, I guess the timing must have had some significance.
It was really good considering that it was a rough cut. The movie is called ‘A message from home is essentially a collection of interviews from of people at various refugee camps and settlements in Darfur and Neighboring Chad. I like the way the interviews strove to show both the pathos of their current situation and their will to go on and rebuild their lives. Kusdos to the producers!
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Ndereba wins fourth Boston title
Defending champion Catherine Ndereba of Kenya became the first four-time woman’s winner of the Boston Marathon yesterday, coming from behind to overtake Ethiopia’s Elfenesh Alemu.
Ndereba won the 109th edition of the world’s oldest annually contested marathon in an unofficial time of 2 hours 25 minutes 12 seconds. That fell short of the women’s course record of 2:20:43 set by Margaret Okayo of Kenya in 2002.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
> Play: Inner termoil and its implications
Well today was an interesting day, I lost a friend to 'the truth' and gained another from her. Truth has a funny way of cutting both ways like that. She gives and she takes away. Either way, what she gives is invariably more precious than what she takes away, and that which she takes away, one hopes, she will one day give back.
A lie on the other hand, gives only what it must and takes all it can, and when it is full grown, it takes back even that which it gave. But this is not an essay on these two timeless foes so ill leave it at that.
The conscience is a very interesting thing don't you think, two days ago I did something I knew was wrong but could justify (sort of) at the time and its interesting how my mind reacted to the whole incident. This was not in anyway the "worst thing" I've ever done, far from it, but I couldn't get it out of my head, this nagging, pocking, feeling in me kept on telling me "that was wrong, you know it, why did you do it?" and I couldn't get it out of my head.
After a while it started getting me down and I came to a cross road where I had to choose the way in which I would react to this feeling. On the one hand, some thing was telling me just to say "See, trying to do right isn't worth it, let it go" and it looked like a very tempting option.
That’s when it hit me! And I'm glad it did just then coz I don't know what would have happened if it didn't. Suddenly I saw that God was trying to tell me something through this inner turmoil that I was experiencing. I began to see that this guilt was not just there to beat me into a depressed state but was there to get me to see Gods position on the matter and to listen up for what to do next. Trust me when you listen, God speaks, he aint playin.
I've had a brilliant 2 days since then and have really felt Gods presence around me. I think I was going through that 'Ministry of the night thing' that is in the 'Purpose Driven life' (wonderful book, must read). I missed Mungu but didn't really realize it until he let me feel his presence again. It was like taking a long breath of fresh air after exiting a smoke filled house... glorious!
A lie on the other hand, gives only what it must and takes all it can, and when it is full grown, it takes back even that which it gave. But this is not an essay on these two timeless foes so ill leave it at that.
The conscience is a very interesting thing don't you think, two days ago I did something I knew was wrong but could justify (sort of) at the time and its interesting how my mind reacted to the whole incident. This was not in anyway the "worst thing" I've ever done, far from it, but I couldn't get it out of my head, this nagging, pocking, feeling in me kept on telling me "that was wrong, you know it, why did you do it?" and I couldn't get it out of my head.
After a while it started getting me down and I came to a cross road where I had to choose the way in which I would react to this feeling. On the one hand, some thing was telling me just to say "See, trying to do right isn't worth it, let it go" and it looked like a very tempting option.
That’s when it hit me! And I'm glad it did just then coz I don't know what would have happened if it didn't. Suddenly I saw that God was trying to tell me something through this inner turmoil that I was experiencing. I began to see that this guilt was not just there to beat me into a depressed state but was there to get me to see Gods position on the matter and to listen up for what to do next. Trust me when you listen, God speaks, he aint playin.
I've had a brilliant 2 days since then and have really felt Gods presence around me. I think I was going through that 'Ministry of the night thing' that is in the 'Purpose Driven life' (wonderful book, must read). I missed Mungu but didn't really realize it until he let me feel his presence again. It was like taking a long breath of fresh air after exiting a smoke filled house... glorious!
Saturday, April 16, 2005
> Play: on being a good boy....
My goodness! How can this be! How can this silly computer erase all the things I just wrote! If I wasn't so gangster I'd cry :-) Anyway I guess there is nothing else to do but start over. Maybe the ideas will flow better this time.
I finished watching Hotel Rwanda yesterday, that’s a wonderful movie. I mean its simply amazing, I have to get the DVD and you should too! It’s been so long since I watched a movie with meaning and a message.
For all who don't know ( I have learned not to assume common knowledge since I came to this continent of America, Rwanda is a country near the east coast of Africa where over 800,000 people where killed in a genocide that lasted 100 days. The world closed its eyes and ears and refused to call what was going on genocide until it was too late. The war was between the two major Rwandese tribes, the HUTU and the TUTSI. The movie is about on courageous hotel Manager, Mr. Paul Rusasabangina who was able shelter over 1200 people from the massacre. It’s a beautiful tale of love and courage under fire.
I had the opportunity to watch the real Mr. Rusasabangina give a narration of his ordeal just last week. It was truly amazing. He came to UT Austin and im glad I went.
I will not tire to reiterate that the same thing that happened in Rwanda is now taking place in the Darfur Region of Western Sudan. 10,000 people are dying every month and the United Nations has abdicated its duty and responsibility by delegating the task of deciding whether to call the situation in Darfur genocide to an external body.( The government of the Sudan is sponsoring a militia called the janjaweed to systematically wipe out all “non Arabs” in the area)
What bugs me the most is that almost everyone that I have spoken to here at the university, has no clue of what is going on. Isn’t it amazing that almost anyone who cares to read a newspaper or watch TV in Kenya knows of and has seen people feverishly protesting for the preservation of Terry Schiavo's life yet these people don’t know about the mass murder of 10s of thousands that is taking place in Africa? Are these lives worth less than Mrs. Schiavos’? Why won't anyone protest for them, stand up for them... at least write a letter to their congress man for them? Ruminate on that...
A riveting story of courage
I finished watching Hotel Rwanda yesterday, that’s a wonderful movie. I mean its simply amazing, I have to get the DVD and you should too! It’s been so long since I watched a movie with meaning and a message.
For all who don't know ( I have learned not to assume common knowledge since I came to this continent of America, Rwanda is a country near the east coast of Africa where over 800,000 people where killed in a genocide that lasted 100 days. The world closed its eyes and ears and refused to call what was going on genocide until it was too late. The war was between the two major Rwandese tribes, the HUTU and the TUTSI. The movie is about on courageous hotel Manager, Mr. Paul Rusasabangina who was able shelter over 1200 people from the massacre. It’s a beautiful tale of love and courage under fire.
I had the opportunity to watch the real Mr. Rusasabangina give a narration of his ordeal just last week. It was truly amazing. He came to UT Austin and im glad I went.
I will not tire to reiterate that the same thing that happened in Rwanda is now taking place in the Darfur Region of Western Sudan. 10,000 people are dying every month and the United Nations has abdicated its duty and responsibility by delegating the task of deciding whether to call the situation in Darfur genocide to an external body.( The government of the Sudan is sponsoring a militia called the janjaweed to systematically wipe out all “non Arabs” in the area)
What bugs me the most is that almost everyone that I have spoken to here at the university, has no clue of what is going on. Isn’t it amazing that almost anyone who cares to read a newspaper or watch TV in Kenya knows of and has seen people feverishly protesting for the preservation of Terry Schiavo's life yet these people don’t know about the mass murder of 10s of thousands that is taking place in Africa? Are these lives worth less than Mrs. Schiavos’? Why won't anyone protest for them, stand up for them... at least write a letter to their congress man for them? Ruminate on that...
A riveting story of courage
Thursday, April 14, 2005
>> FFW: Many days later John found himself in a strang and distant land...
It burns me that I dont care enough. I may say that do, console myself with the suggestion that the fact that i wheep when I watch a video that shows my own, my kin, suffering beyond my capacity to understand means tht I care. Truth remains, if I don't act, then I don't care; not really. Or maybe I do care, but jsut nt as much as i care about gettin' me a neew ipod or cell phone. Maybe I care but don't care enough, not nearly enough.....
Its burns me inside to know that the humanity of my fellow man seems to be inverslly proportional to his distance from me. That the further you are, the less human you become to me. It hurt to know that even though we have suffered so much in persuit of knowledge, we so badly lack understanding. We we gain a form of tollerance in exchange for all form of compassion. Its ubsurd, it make me sick, sick to know that this is me.
I must, i have to do something. I cant the self deception, this 'bad faith', this 'decedance'. I have to do something.... something. But what? I will start with speaking, lending my voice to those withot a voice those of my Kin who die for want of someone to speak of their plight.... for one of 'men with chests'. Who.... what am I, if i can sit and watch as the river runs read and say, wih out lifting so much as a finger "I am power less to stop it, willing but unable"
Every month, more than 10,000 people die in the Darfur reagon of Sudan. 10.100!! That the entire UT population in 5 months.... the Govenment of Sudan is sponssering a melitia, a band of armed men on horse back called the janjaweed to systematically wipe out all all the non-Arabs in the region and though this has been taking place for over a year now, the rest of the world has closed its eyes and ears, silenced their tongues, renegaded on their "Never Again" pledge and patient watched over 300,000 people die. Still they refuse to call this genocided, I guess they are.... no waite, WE are afraid of steping on someones toes. I makes me sick to see that this is me. I hope, and i pray that soon, I will be able to say that that WAS me, but not any more... no longer.
Why them....
Its burns me inside to know that the humanity of my fellow man seems to be inverslly proportional to his distance from me. That the further you are, the less human you become to me. It hurt to know that even though we have suffered so much in persuit of knowledge, we so badly lack understanding. We we gain a form of tollerance in exchange for all form of compassion. Its ubsurd, it make me sick, sick to know that this is me.
I must, i have to do something. I cant the self deception, this 'bad faith', this 'decedance'. I have to do something.... something. But what? I will start with speaking, lending my voice to those withot a voice those of my Kin who die for want of someone to speak of their plight.... for one of 'men with chests'. Who.... what am I, if i can sit and watch as the river runs read and say, wih out lifting so much as a finger "I am power less to stop it, willing but unable"
Every month, more than 10,000 people die in the Darfur reagon of Sudan. 10.100!! That the entire UT population in 5 months.... the Govenment of Sudan is sponssering a melitia, a band of armed men on horse back called the janjaweed to systematically wipe out all all the non-Arabs in the region and though this has been taking place for over a year now, the rest of the world has closed its eyes and ears, silenced their tongues, renegaded on their "Never Again" pledge and patient watched over 300,000 people die. Still they refuse to call this genocided, I guess they are.... no waite, WE are afraid of steping on someones toes. I makes me sick to see that this is me. I hope, and i pray that soon, I will be able to say that that WAS me, but not any more... no longer.
Why them....
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Play: > Again i begin
Ok its been the longest time i know, but its been a crazy time for me yall gotta understand, imagine im now in the states! its carazy, after hustling for so long im here and it aint all that. Anyway thats probably coz I spend so much time in school that i tend to forget that there exists a world beyond the dounderies of the university of texas at Austin ( which by the way is where im @) It not the traditional picture of a school though (fences, uniform, askaris) so im doing ok.
God has really be been hollaring at me of late, Ok it stated a while back but thats how long i have kept away from the blog (again im compelled to offer my sincerest appologies). Cant write everying that has cat since i last wrote but i do want to say that God is faithful and he has shown me this time and time again.
On Sunday God gave me a ride home. For real yo! i was lost coming from church and he gave me a ride all the way to jester. infact it startd with me missing the shuttle that was to come and get me. So God made the second driver stay at the church coz he doesn't have a cell phone. so when i called the church he was sent to pick me up n we had a nice time talkin about UT sports on the way to church.
when service ended i decided (not too brightly i might add) that i couldn't wait for the return shuttle coz i would be late for a meeting so i thought id walk! it didn't seem to far on the drive over. Well it turned out to be quite far which wouldn't really have ben a problem coz i've walked longer distances before with relative ease. unfortunately though it turned out the i couldn't remember the way back and ended up getting hopelessly lost. I came to a crossing and was getting impatiant waiting forthe walk light to turn green, little did i know that this was all part of Gods plan to get me back home in time for the meeting! I crossed to the otherside of the road and began walking getting surer with every step that i was getting even more lost. I was about to turn around and head back where i came from when what do i see at the junction up ahead?! the shuttle that brought me to the church. so i wave at the driver and he recognises me and stops, and the rest is history :-)
Now if i had gotten on the shuttle i was supposed to, i wouldn't have known the second shuttles driver and thus he wouldn't have stopped when i waved. Also i i hadn't been kept waiting at the lights i would have passed the junciton and the shuttle driver would not have seen me when he stopped at the janction! so you want a miracle, there you go.
stuff like that has been happening alot lately. It feels nice. Gods got ma back
God has really be been hollaring at me of late, Ok it stated a while back but thats how long i have kept away from the blog (again im compelled to offer my sincerest appologies). Cant write everying that has cat since i last wrote but i do want to say that God is faithful and he has shown me this time and time again.
On Sunday God gave me a ride home. For real yo! i was lost coming from church and he gave me a ride all the way to jester. infact it startd with me missing the shuttle that was to come and get me. So God made the second driver stay at the church coz he doesn't have a cell phone. so when i called the church he was sent to pick me up n we had a nice time talkin about UT sports on the way to church.
when service ended i decided (not too brightly i might add) that i couldn't wait for the return shuttle coz i would be late for a meeting so i thought id walk! it didn't seem to far on the drive over. Well it turned out to be quite far which wouldn't really have ben a problem coz i've walked longer distances before with relative ease. unfortunately though it turned out the i couldn't remember the way back and ended up getting hopelessly lost. I came to a crossing and was getting impatiant waiting forthe walk light to turn green, little did i know that this was all part of Gods plan to get me back home in time for the meeting! I crossed to the otherside of the road and began walking getting surer with every step that i was getting even more lost. I was about to turn around and head back where i came from when what do i see at the junction up ahead?! the shuttle that brought me to the church. so i wave at the driver and he recognises me and stops, and the rest is history :-)
Now if i had gotten on the shuttle i was supposed to, i wouldn't have known the second shuttles driver and thus he wouldn't have stopped when i waved. Also i i hadn't been kept waiting at the lights i would have passed the junciton and the shuttle driver would not have seen me when he stopped at the janction! so you want a miracle, there you go.
stuff like that has been happening alot lately. It feels nice. Gods got ma back
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